enlightened

this weekend was amazing!!
me n leesh drove down to simi to celebrate mariiina's 20th birthday! we met all her friends and omgggahhh so refreshing. after her bday lunch we all mobbed out to encino to go to the buffolo exchange, real cool thrift shop. Our planwas to go see pinback, that was the main eventof teh night...so, we head on down to El Rey Theatre in hollywood, get in line, and find out that it is sold out!!! WACK! haha me and marina were trying not to cry LOL. o well we still had fun.

we just walked aroufn and went back to mariiina's. we all slept on her bed. haha yes me, leesh, and marina slept in a full size bed. HAHAHA

"everyone laugh!"
" i dont even knwo where that came from"

haha
so saturday, we go back down to hollywood to hang out with marina's new friends, iko and jessica, who are AMAZING people!! omg! they were having a little get togetehr with some of their friends. i felt nothing but good vibes from these girls. we ended up playing cranium for almsot 3 hours lol. i cant wait to go back and visit!

i've never felt so enlightened haha.
awesome.

Suprise visit?!

Christian drove up to bakers and visited me! omg it was soo fun! it was like 11 pm but who cares! me, esther, leesh, and trav were all chilling at my house.

Chris and I had a mini photoshoot hahah! so geyyy. Man we had such a good time though. Justr kiking back, playiong rummy till 4 in the morning! It brought back the good old memories :)

Even though we disagree on alot of things, i love him no matter. hands downs one of my best friends that i will ever have.

a cupcake from a convenience store

a cupcake from a convenience store
Originally uploaded by jek in the box

life is sweet
i'm happy.


:)


yum.

santamonica//amazing

santamonica was amazing!
it was so good hanging out with marina, trav, lauren, and leo.

its crazy really but its amazing at the same time.
im glad we all had the chance to chill.

we went to venice! it was my first time! haha some crazy people out there i tell you lol.

but anyhow, it was just like the final step in closure between me and my old friend. was it awkward?
um yes! just a little bit. As cheesy as it sounds, it was as if that Gwen Stefani song Cool, and that Anberlin song A Day Late Friend they were the story of my life that day.

Im glad we've both found someone w ho makes us happy. i know travis makes me happy :) and im know marina makes leo happy.

i just loved how we are all friends. its the best feelign in the world.

well here are some photos i took. i think im getting better at this haha ;)

its all good :)
life's good.
I love the people in it :)

i can tell that we are gonna be friends....

:)

last nights fone calls was from him,
its been about 7 months since ive heard his voice.
as i looked at the caller id on my cell, my mind forze. Could it really be?

i can express the relief i felt. A huge weight was lifted from my shoulders.
and to know that they were also pain like me. its crazy how we let things happen.
but you know, we suffer from our own choices.

im glad to say that we are working on restroing what we had.
a true genuine friendship.
we're picking up the pieces and mending the ones we can and throwing out the ones we dont need. i feel great.
and the best part is that my 3 bestfriends are happy about this.
trav, leesh and mariina. it feels good.

this new journey begins :)

my estherface

IMG00023
Originally uploaded by xursointricatex

is thee bestest person everest!
shess the shiz nizz bam bizzle wizzle.
she makes everybody shmile :D
shes hella decent.
shes a crazii cool artist.
she is a true friend
&&
i wanna stay with her forevers and evers.

cheer up easters :)



if you know esther, and you love her to, leave a nice comnt
even if u dont know here haha she is straight legitttt :D

there's nothing better

than having your bestfriend as your boyfrined :)

is'nt he cute? hahaha



as you may now know, me and trav are dating. I am very happy, you have no idea.
like finally right? its so different. its been 6 years since we met and i can still say that each year has only made our friendship stronger :). i love love love him! i love what he does, i love his talent, i love his family! oh im just excited for this new journey

early 2009


early 2006... haha wow :)



yep. best friends :]

mariina leticia gonzalez

AHHHHmazing.

no lie.
this girl is like my lifee.. well not my life but i freaken love her
im so glad she's in my life!
seriously its so ironic you dont even know

okay so its been liek 5 official months that we've been friends and i just feel like ive known her for years! i wish i lived closer to her, im so blessed to have in my life. mariinaa i love you. always will. if we've been able to overcome what we have without even knowing eachother.


<3333

i have amazing people in my life.

tattoo idea

kay so i want to get a tattoo so im trying to come up with ideas

i really like this one so far


i've always said i wanted a phoenix, which represents "rebirth".
it looks like it has hibiscus flowers at the bottom and on the side, they represent "delicate beauty".. im not sure i want those. instead i might have a ginger flower, which represents "pride" and a star of bethleham flower, which represents "hope"

idk i like it because it's like your proud of who you've become, and your past has only made you stronger and there is only hope for tomorrow.

just an idea.






:]

Rosa de agua

Rosa de agua
Originally uploaded by ƒreg / Fernando Gregory

water.
it is
everywhere
it is in everything.



For some reason that picture just fascinates me.

The beginning of the path

The beginning of the path
Originally uploaded by Ana Carol Mendes

&
i continue to walk along...

but as i walk, i am growing, i am learning, i am living.

i may not know where i am going, but i am going to get there.

pinbacklorro

pinbacklorro
Originally uploaded by xursointricatex

and the ripped ones say goodbye....

breathe

Tree Art
Originally uploaded by Jeremy-G

be alive.

Dear Mercy

starz
Originally uploaded by xursointricatex

so me and leesh are gonna take our fun gig up a notch.
we're gona go record, as requested by our fans, at Oliver Studios pretty soon.

check us out on youtube.com.ninjaeli

this is a lot of fun for us guys so support us :))
spread teh word about us yee?


peace
ellie

sweat talk

music: So Much Love - The Rocket Summer

wow i haven't written in like two weeks... or something.

so... I know there is a few people out there wondering about what's been going on in my life... cough, well at least one or two haha ;) It has been sweat. Just cruising and what not. I am getting my second raise this month! YAY!! That's going to be nice.

Anyhow, I really cant remember anything interesting thats happened in the past few weeks. But, last night, it was BOMB! It was Esther's 21st birthday so we all went out to Johns Incredible Pizza!!! WOOOP. Esther, Jacob, Rebecca, Patrick, Sam and sum chic (lol), Eddie, Justin, Alisha, Max, Travis and me! We had so much fun and freaking Alisha won the 560 ticket jackpot on her third try on the flashing light spinning thingy! lol!! We got some like Huge eyeball glasses.... it was hilarious! we went walking to the 24 hour fitness where the people were on the treadmills and we danced like crazy with the huge eyes glasses hah! I will post pictures as soon as Alisha get them uploaded.

Afterwards we literately hung out in the parking lot for almost 3 hours. What was awesome about it all though was that... how old are we?? haha but we didn't care, we're just who we are :] In the midst of all of us just hanging out there having fun doing nothing, I realized what an awesome group of friends I have. We all have fun even when we're flat out broke and have each others back. I know I say that a lot, but thats because it's true. Everyone's so chill and i love it!

Also, things are still going great with my guyfriend ;) for those of you who are concerned. lol

OH! also, im leading worship tonight at youth! I'm excited! i dont think ive ever lead the entire worship at youth here in Bakersfield. Everything is going to go good ... I hope.. haha it will :]

Peace

xelliex

it keeps getting better

music: I Just Do - Dear & The Headlights

:)

so just letting ya'll know that life is going real good atm.

its real crazy, everyday im still like... wait...is this real?

it seems so surreal & different, but i like it...lol. i dont know anything but i do know that things feel right. instead of saying " i cant believe its taken this long", im going to say, i couldnt be anymore happier that its taken this long. timing just seems almost perfect haha. a few of you know what exactly im talking about lol.

and its just so much more awesome becaus i know Gods handling everything. e v e r y t h i n g.

i have amazing people in my life.

everyday i realize that more and more.

so to everyone,

thank you :]

my parents, my sister, bart & lori, matt & amanda, gayle, my best friend alisha & my best friend travis. i appreciate you guys so much. you guys dont even know how unknowingly you guys brighten my day.

peace

xelliex

:D

ayyy baybayy

okay so.

things.

are.

changing.

but it's a good thing :]

it's really funny actually, and i rele wanna spill on this, but, for this one, im keeping quiet till God gives the okay.

giving things a chance. just letting God take the wheel and stuff, ya, its good.

:)))

peace

xelliex

Bambbozle trip highlights

Friday night
1) listening to Shiny Toy Guns almost all the way lol ^_^
2)getting there!!!
3)seeing my jon<333
4)The Spectrum & riding the giant FERRISWHEEL.
5)going to the beach with jon
6)getting randomly invited to party at "427"
7)pillow fight at the hotel.
8)staying up with jon till 3 in the am :]

Saturday
1)brunch at The Corner Bakery. we so need one here!
2)seeing kevin again HAHA we found him! uh oh explosion.
3)waiting in line to get in with the most wierdest people infront and behind us.
4)"fml" ? HAHA
5)me and leesha making fun of all the scene kids and skanks :D
6)nevershoutnever!...pure happiness :)
7)getting high fived and 6 compliments from stargers on our Warriors band tees. im tellign you, they are a hit. lol.
8)HAHAHA BLOODHOUND GANG.... "who wants some shower power!?"
9)STICK TO YOUR GUNS straight up right in me and leeshas face! "we're what separates the heart from the heartless!"
10) HASTE THE DAY! omg rocked out so hardddd it was insaneee.
11)going back to the spectrum again lol dinner at The Cheesecake Factory. omann the best veggie sandwich :]
& me and leesha discovering our... deep deep secret

Sunday
1)day two of bamboozle :D
2)o my goodness...all these hardcore boys =)))
3) Underneath the Gun. wow. awesome.
4)SAOSIN! seeing Cove sing his new song fireflies <333
5)THRICE!!!! front row holding onto that rail.
6)making fun of jefree starrr.
7)"fml" ?! again? ahaha.
8)watching Taking Back Sunday! even if it was from far away


hella chill weekend.
cant wait for next years line up.
and cant wait to see jon again...geeze 2 years went by and we didnt even realize it.
well back to "reality" and "work blah.


:D
peace
xelliex

3 more days!

till i leave to The Oc for Bamboozle!
yay!!! im so xxxxited!
we're leaving friday after work to our hotel && hopefully, if things go as planned, im going to get to hang out with my boy Jon <3 he's so sweet!
i've missed him so much! geeze its been 2 years! ha ;)
me and leesha are going to have so much fun!
i even already packed haha. anyhow,
so i had the worst ear infections as some of you may know, but im feeling so much better now!
and im starting to hear better from my left ear, thats good :D

last night service was good. Romans 5:8.
Im so glad my youth pastors are seriously devoted and obident to God.
i want to be like them when im older, in the deep things of God.

k well im at work so blehhhh lol. i'll blog some more later :]



oh btw, your shoes untied.
ps. APRILS FOOLS !



peace
xelliex

really?

heyyyyyy!



okay so my current source of amusement came from my mother
telling me that while she was at church, (in simivalley) in the womens restroom,
she noticed someone carved "elianna is a loser".
HAHAHAHA
seriously? I haven't even gone to simi since january
and people are still acting like that?
all I had to say to that was 1) wow. 2) hahah 3) I know im a loser :]
but, I'm a loser who's hardworking, gets the good money, and shares and loves this
her life with all her TRUE and amazing friends. so I guess in reality, I'm a winner but u can call me whatever
you like. I know who and what I am.
so I don't care if u write that, go ahead and write it in every public restrrom you
use haha :D

anyways, as u can see , I haven't blogged in a week or so. that's cus I've been real sick
battling 2 massive ear infections. I didn't even go to work for 4 days!
but I'm feeling so much better now. antibiotics are finally kikin in.

ohhhhh &,
BAMBOOZLE trip in 5 days omgsh I'm so exciteddd! I even already packed half my stuff lol!
there's the "loser" in me ;D
I need a good weekend getaway. its gonna be so much fun! me and alisha r gonna have a rocking good time

peace
xelliex

:D

listening to : If the Moon Fell Down Tonight by Andrew Landon




ohhh mann. tonight was way funny!
I don't think I will ever be able to look at an ATM ever again!
thnx lori....lol don't ask. I dnt ever want to make a deposit at the atm lol!

so middle school youth was so good tonite!
terry spoke again and brought a good word on friendship.
I just wanna saw I'm so proud of my lil sis. I can really see her growing up into a person who loves God with all their heart. I just pray that shw be wise in choosing her friendships n all that stuff.

after church me n trav went to sizzlers wit B&L and Chip n Debbie. got into a real interesting convo. Chips such a smart man. its crazy. got me thinking aboout how closer time is getting for when he will come back for his People.
k well I'm shleeeep.
gnite
peace
xelliex



ps. if ya haven't heard, donate to the "help bart get a new moniter foundation" LOL

du du du du

currently listening to : Loro by Pinback


k so its been a couple of days.
quick update
fri: hung out with the peeps ie:leesh & esther & jacob & eddie haha had a hella chill time. btw, that new place chik-a-filet is BOMB!
sat: hung out some more with leesh. watched some good indie flicks.
ps. if ya didnt know, im all into indie films, watch them with me. ;)
sun: went to the studio in LA with marina <333>

k so today was pretty good :]
work was so boring though haha
i've been so busy with files and cases.
ugh people. stop filing bankruptcy! lol jk
but over all, its going good...i think, well im still there lol.

but anyways, youth was great tonight!
district leaderes aka terry v and kylie (haha) came out and terry spoke.
it was an awesome word, refreshing :)
afterwards we went to chilies, like always lol
i never really hung out with terry n kylie. theyr awesome people :]
im glad to have leaders like bart n lori and terry n kylie who are not just my "leaders" or "youth pastors", theyr also my friends. i think thats the best way to train yuor staff and disciples.

so im so stoked for BAMBOOZLE!
its 4 weeks away! YAYYYYYYYY!
cant wait haha im just waiting for my ticket to come in the mail errr

anyhow, last night i got a txt.
it was very unexpected. im just hoping that we've finally found some closure. for reals this time though.
i love life to much to live in regret or in bitterness. :)
ive got nothing but love :D

life rules


peace
xelliex

hi.

curently listening to : No Rain by Blind Melon
note to self #1 : dont sit on the edge of your seat at work, you'll fall and make a loud noise.


so, its been like 7 days since ive posted anything. haha thats a miracle. lol jk
anyhow, lifes been good.
im still oh so very happy :]

Gods been showing up so much clearer in my life and in our youth group. i love it!
ok so i got the creepiest commentleft on my truthbox on myspace.
it said, "im inlove with you" thats not the worst part...it says that its from a female!!
WHAT! CREEPY!! haha it better be joke. now im creeped out LOL
anyways, ughh i cant wait for saturday!
me, leesha and esthers are gonna go to Tehach ti see Jakes band and... THE WARRIORS! heck yes!
girls nighttttttttt :D

gonna be fun.


ps.

I DID GET THE RAISE!!
25K+ bby:]

i know i know i know

waiting for fate to open up our eyes....... stay away boy, stay away boy.
my heart is an empty room.
the forcast: west coast


So, todays a pretty mellow day so far.
some sad news but im being strong for my friends.
it just seems like latley everyone i know is loosing someone they love.
its just... idk, not fair. all us friends can do i guess, is just be, a friend.
to my boys and Gayle, you guys know i love you very much, as if you were my own family.
im here for you guys through this hard time, and know that God is there always! :]
all my love to you.


k so im going to the mall with leesh later after work. should be pretty tight.
hoping to buy some decent shirts and then chill wit some friends.

oh and to my chumbum friend.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :]
ily friend.



peace
xelliex

heres your lifeline

wow.

you know how i said i love life?

well, i love life even more now!

im so not even kidding you. Gods been so great to me! and its not that he hasn't before, but now, that im seeing in kingdom rather than in world, i can see the greatness. i dont even know how to explain this! you have to experience it for yourself i guess.

but woa, man tonight's message was amazing, and we didn't even get through all of it!

my friend finally came to church and ugh... i could tell right from when we started playing worship that this service was going to be a little different and it sure was different :)

when i saw my friend go up there and start crying out to God i just wanted to jump for joy and cry of happiness. sheeshhhhhh! there's nothing more rewarding than to see your prayers starting to be answered :]

i love life! my youth pastors! my true friends! 

im so blessed.

i love everything!, well not everything... aha i dont love papaya. ugh =/

laugh out loud.

so after service we all went to chillies haha it was so funny. haha they know what im talking about. oh and... just incase, since aparently i type everything in "i.m" lingo, bart, incase your reading this, im spelling everything out and not talking in "i.m" hahaha

lifes good homies. wont find no goombas round here :]

peace

xelliex

ps. BAMBOOZLE!! HECK YEAHHH!!!! getting closer to April 4th and 5th!

oh gravity

is taking its toll on me.
love that song by John Mayer.

anyhow, so this weekend was full of excitment. lol
gah seriously recap
fridday - esther, justin, eddie leesh and even my lil sister! haha we had so much fun
messing around and doin a whole lotta nothing.
saturday - had so much fun saturday we had to do it all over again lol!
I still can't get over how justin and eddie, especially eddie, sang oops I did it again
by britney spears, so well haha I'm laughing just thinking about it.
sunday - went to go see Taken with leesh n my sis then got to chill wait silver! finally after forever! went to dennys wit leehs trav my sis n silv .had a good time, then played some apples to apples again haha

unfortunatly, there was some lameness that night,
sometimes you just need to give a girl some space, if I dnt tlk or txt u in 2 weeks, its probably cus I dnt
wanna tlk to you just yet. some guys just make everything seem impossible.
it was real sad but thank God I have amazing friends that helped me with this.
huge shout out to Esther and Alisha. I love you girls!
guys need to stop being so indecisive and need to be more forward and when they tell you something, they need to act it aswell. anyways...

monday - esther, justin and eddie had to come over for some more fun, lol JK
they so chilllllll :) just hung out n watched skate vids n stuff :)
had the day off so that was awesome but now, work tomoro. eugh noooo. ha :]

k well I think that's all for tonight

peace
xelliex


ps. lifes good, now I just need someone to cuddle with hehe ;]

grape ice cream?

im still in a good mood. heck yess!!!
so last night esther eddie and justin came over!
we had sucha blast!

lol we played that game Apples to Apples for like 2 hours almost HAHHAH!!!
we couldnt stop laughing at some of teh ridiculous stuff lol.
and well yea
haha :))))))

oh and then singstar, dont even get me started! LOL leesha brought it over and i swear, i have never seen a guy (eddie) sing that song Oh baby baby, by Britney Spears so well and on pitch LOL!! jkjk man Esther so coool haha.
uhgh but yeahh we're gonna try to chill tonight again. Hopefuly it happens.

ohh and, i freaken got me some grape drank! lol ima go "surprise" funnylookingoneupper guy later today and bring him his purple drank!







im happy guys :]
and i dont even know why.
tell me why?!





peace
xelliex

thats not fair.

so this weeks still going good :]
I booked another day for bamboozle. lol
ima leave friday nite instead and hangout for the night instead of leaving saturday morning
I think its a better plan. lol!

anyhow, so...I've been feeling a little awkward lately. I rele don't like it much.
I hate feeling like I'm hurting my friend when I'm not even doing anything.
I hope I'm wrong.

I got to tlk to my friend today about it, he kinda helped me feel a lil better.
I love that guy man. silvs always been there to lend an ear and give advise. lol
but ya, dnt rele know wat to do. I'm doing my best rele I am. but I cnt control wat another person feels.
like I said, hopefuly I'm wrong about this.

but ya anyhow, I love alll my friends :) old ones and new ones.
man it crazy how we all change, I was looking at all my old friends profiles and its just insane.
I'm like the only one who didn't turn out well, like gangter r&b type. ha
I'm glad LOL!

and just so you know, no I'm not sprung on anyone. I just enoy tlken to this guy, and well, I wanna get to him better, so that's what I'm doing k. no feelings involved yet so ya. I apreciate that u care, but dnt wrry.


peace
xelliex

yet one again!

BAMBOOZLE LEFT 09!
ouuu you know i already got my hotel booked!
ha dudes im so ecxited!! deng last year was insane this years going to be way better! atleast i hope lol :]

sooo yahh. im on my lunch. oh, i finaly got a twitter acount thingy haha since everyones doing it, i thought i'd join the bandwagon, so if ur bored i guess, check it out!
twitter.com/ellieEDGE i think thats what it is atleast.

anyhow, hows everyone. conversate!
i need to meet new people, idk ive just been wanting to do something advernterous lately. ha like go to the beach, mountains or something...magic mountain...hu yea?yea?yea? hehe.
as you can probably tell, im kinda energetic atm. my freaken co-worker gave me half of her oatmeal cookie. nooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

idk. lifes just been so much BETTER. its insane in the membrane. i feel so glad to be alive and ugh haha Gods good is'nt he :] last night, barts message was killer. right on the dot. i almost just wanted to stand at one point and shout hah :0)



:P


xelliex

heyboyhey!

:D

haaaaaaa.
well its been awhile... lots happened.
just so u know, I'm so over it. all of it. it just all finally clicked in my head I guess.
I mean really, I'm not going to waste my time being emotionaly toyed with.
I feel so much better!
its kinda sad, I haven't spoken wit him in over a week, but its renewing aswell.
I miss him but, lifes better this way. someone will eventually come along the way :]

also, my dear pastor and friend elio passed away on monday. it rele made me look at things differntly
I think that's y I've been having such a good week. he was a true humble man. so loving and kind.
friday was his memorial service. it was an all night thing. he was so loved! and his 3 kids, my rele good friends, they have got so much love and support from all of us. they've been so strong, I'm so proud of them.
I love you soi. elio n esdras! you guys have a huge chunk of my heart :]


oh &&& I finally got to chil with my homegirl esther!
she soo chill! she also brought her cute cuz n friend. haha
they we're way chill to! and well haha hey boy hey! as hailey would say haha.
so gonna chill them again!

alsooooo, I'm getting a raise! blinks back together! anddd I booked the hotel for bamboozle left! so Xcited. the count down begins 3 months! ha :D
deng. lifes good. I love it and everyone in it :]

church tomoro. can't wait!

peace
xelliex

A LEGACY

u were a humble man from the very beggining. you cared for everyone no matter who we were and what we did. if there's one thing I know for certain, its that u left a legacy behind. a legacy in your 3 childern, in ur grand kids and in all those who you were an inspiration to. uknowingly you taught me to look at life different. to apreciate everything we have, and to trust in the Lord UNCONDITIONALY.

you had every reason to give up on your faith, from having been left alone with ur kids and getting cancer, but you didn't stop that faith. you didn't let the fact that u were sick stop you from giving praise to God. faith. you had faith, a kind of faith that I wish to have and that I'm going to do my best to achieve. 

I know your standing in the Glory of God, still being that faithful humble servant that you were here on earth. we will never forget you, your legacy will live on through your childern and through us.

I'm not gonna​ say rest in peace​,​ cus I know that at this very momen​t your danci​ng & jumpi​ng in peace​ an everl​astin​g peace​.​

we love you, Pasto​r Elio





-​ellie​

but you dont see me, not at all

so this weekend has been quite an emotional roller coaster, I went from feeling fantastic to feeling alone to feeling ok and then mad. ehhh. that's life though I guess.
last nite me n trav had an interesting conversation. he could see something was bothering
me....I've just been real frustrated lately with everything.
like not having my own car, and my parents not being able to help me with it and work and just everything
and then when I took my lil sis to the movies wit her friends and all...it was nice seeing these girls have such a good friendship but I just felt like a loser sitting at the theaters all by myself.
alone...

I was telling trav how its just frustrating how you think and u do ur best in life and u
have an awesome personality and all that and ur even talented n chill yet, guys always say they want one thing and then go for the total oppisite. am I not girly enough? like its funny how all the guys call me one of the boys but at the same time, it makes me feel kinda...awkward. like what's wrong with me?
do I have to be all touchy and flirty and stuff? well that's not who I am. is it rele my fault that I chose a guitar and drums instead of nail polish and pink?

I'm tired of all these guys saying they want a girl who's can do all that I can do , and then just leave me standing there while they find some preppy or indie girl who doesn't even enjoy the things they do.

idk....maybe I'm just at an awkward stage in life. I probaly am. I'm just being honest with myself. I know God has the master plan and I guess we just have to wait, but guys...a word of advise, don't toy with our feelings. dont say u want one thing and then go get the oppisite.

blehhhh.

I'm ok. I've got my few close friends and my family. that all I need :]

these city lights.

so I think we have our band name.
wat do u think?
I can't wait to start structuing the songs...and finding a drummer and bass player, maybe even a second guitar
idk we'll see.
lol anyhow, just thought id scribble in a little.
this is probly gonna be random and pointless :]

-I finally got my own fone in my office. wootwoot!
16613237933 ext110 I think...haha
-I want to go see a show already, perferably styg and haste the day. that'd be siq.
- personal trainer appt. thurs yay!
-I rele dnt know why I feel like blabbing atm ^_^
-I rele need my own car....
-activia yogurt is the devil. lol!
-ishc are funny as heck
-time....its goes by fast.


k well enoughs enough ;]
peace
xelliex

catch up

hey! i hadn't realized how longs it been since ive wrote on here!
well ive been doing good. just a tad bit sick, actually, im really sick...lol i might have strep throat or some vinfection bleh. not good news.
but anyhow, on my job, well im working full time now! im so excoted about all this. so many new things have happened and its just cray how you dont even realize how time slips by so quick. today me and my sister went to best buy and target to buy some stuff and when we got home she was helping me carry my bags to my room and she said, "gee ellie, its funny how you can buy your own stuff now and drive, your a grown up now". it really is a scary thought.


kay some other stuff, i went to winter camp on saturday, just to visit, and it was AMAZING! Big Tim gave one of the best sermons or whatever you call em, ive ever heard! he spoke about authentic worship and how sometimes we kiss the toilet and then go to kiss Jesus. ugh it totally tore my heart apart when he said that because its so TRUE! we two time God and its so sad that it took me so long to really accept it and realize that needs to change that. i need to stop living a double life.

oh and well yea time and time again ppl never cease to stop surprising me.
some people would rather stay resentful over a misunderstanding than forgive and move forward.
that's just real annoying. but hey, atleast I tried to make amends but I can't force anyone to be my friend or to move forward. if the wanna stay resentful, thars all on them.
so yea i think thats pretty much it. hrm...?
:]


peace
xelliex