Update

kay so it's been a few weeks.  I've been so busy with everything. literately, EVERYTHING.

I am all moved into my new place :)  I like it a lot, really happy with that.  It's still kinda weird.  I feel like  I am at a hotel with all my stuff in it haha.  Anyhow, not much has really happened though other than me moving out.  Things are still rocky with my parents.  I actually haven't spoken to them in probably over a month now.  Lame I know, but oh well.  I am still jon searching... not much luck with that either :(

I am hoping soon things will change over for the better though.  Trying to hold on to hope. Anyways, here are a few things that I am hoping to be able to do in the next few months:
-FACEDOWN FEST!!! Is anyone I know going?? My sister Vanessa and I are trying to make it out there this year.  Last year was awesome.
- SOUND AND FURY!!!! 1st announcement is in two weeks holy crap!!!!!!!
- Having my sister Katlyn come over my new place


Oh and just a quick rant,  what the heck is up with Warped Tour this year? The line up is so gay!!! I think this might be the first year I don't go. The only real bands that interest me this year are New Found Glory, Yellowcard, Bayside and a few others.  I may just go for the day with Leesh and whoever wants to go but on the real, line up is pretty weak.

A Letter to My Parents

Dad & Mom,

Thanks for letting me stay at your house for all these years.  I know you guys did your best trying to raise me.  Dad, you taught me how to be smart and how to stand my ground.  Mom, because of you I will always know how to clean up after myself.  I know these past two months have been very hard on everyone.

Dad, I wish you were stronger so that you could've dealt with your issues sooner.  I know you love mom, but I wish I knew you love me and my sisters the same too.  Don't take this in an offensive way, I am just telling you how it is.  I don't lie about stuff like this.  I really feel betrayed by you.  I know you hurt mom, but you also hurt your daughters, all three of us.

Mom, I know you love dad and you have "forgiven" him, so I wish you wouldn't have been so negative about me and Vanessa wanting Katlyn to be in our lives.  I know you and I will never see things the same way, and that's okay, but I wish you could just respect me.  I didn't want to choose between you and Katlyn.  To me, you are both my family.  I hope one day you can see that she is also my father's daughter.

All in all, I forgive you both and I hope you can forgive me to.  I am respecting your wishes and I am moving out of your house.  This is all very scary for me, but I know God is with me and He will never abandon me.

Best wishes,

Ellie

P.S.  I hope in the future, and when you are ready, that we can do some family counseling.  We need it.