hi.

curently listening to : No Rain by Blind Melon
note to self #1 : dont sit on the edge of your seat at work, you'll fall and make a loud noise.


so, its been like 7 days since ive posted anything. haha thats a miracle. lol jk
anyhow, lifes been good.
im still oh so very happy :]

Gods been showing up so much clearer in my life and in our youth group. i love it!
ok so i got the creepiest commentleft on my truthbox on myspace.
it said, "im inlove with you" thats not the worst part...it says that its from a female!!
WHAT! CREEPY!! haha it better be joke. now im creeped out LOL
anyways, ughh i cant wait for saturday!
me, leesha and esthers are gonna go to Tehach ti see Jakes band and... THE WARRIORS! heck yes!
girls nighttttttttt :D

gonna be fun.


ps.

I DID GET THE RAISE!!
25K+ bby:]

i know i know i know

waiting for fate to open up our eyes....... stay away boy, stay away boy.
my heart is an empty room.
the forcast: west coast


So, todays a pretty mellow day so far.
some sad news but im being strong for my friends.
it just seems like latley everyone i know is loosing someone they love.
its just... idk, not fair. all us friends can do i guess, is just be, a friend.
to my boys and Gayle, you guys know i love you very much, as if you were my own family.
im here for you guys through this hard time, and know that God is there always! :]
all my love to you.


k so im going to the mall with leesh later after work. should be pretty tight.
hoping to buy some decent shirts and then chill wit some friends.

oh and to my chumbum friend.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :]
ily friend.



peace
xelliex

heres your lifeline

wow.

you know how i said i love life?

well, i love life even more now!

im so not even kidding you. Gods been so great to me! and its not that he hasn't before, but now, that im seeing in kingdom rather than in world, i can see the greatness. i dont even know how to explain this! you have to experience it for yourself i guess.

but woa, man tonight's message was amazing, and we didn't even get through all of it!

my friend finally came to church and ugh... i could tell right from when we started playing worship that this service was going to be a little different and it sure was different :)

when i saw my friend go up there and start crying out to God i just wanted to jump for joy and cry of happiness. sheeshhhhhh! there's nothing more rewarding than to see your prayers starting to be answered :]

i love life! my youth pastors! my true friends! 

im so blessed.

i love everything!, well not everything... aha i dont love papaya. ugh =/

laugh out loud.

so after service we all went to chillies haha it was so funny. haha they know what im talking about. oh and... just incase, since aparently i type everything in "i.m" lingo, bart, incase your reading this, im spelling everything out and not talking in "i.m" hahaha

lifes good homies. wont find no goombas round here :]

peace

xelliex

ps. BAMBOOZLE!! HECK YEAHHH!!!! getting closer to April 4th and 5th!

oh gravity

is taking its toll on me.
love that song by John Mayer.

anyhow, so this weekend was full of excitment. lol
gah seriously recap
fridday - esther, justin, eddie leesh and even my lil sister! haha we had so much fun
messing around and doin a whole lotta nothing.
saturday - had so much fun saturday we had to do it all over again lol!
I still can't get over how justin and eddie, especially eddie, sang oops I did it again
by britney spears, so well haha I'm laughing just thinking about it.
sunday - went to go see Taken with leesh n my sis then got to chill wait silver! finally after forever! went to dennys wit leehs trav my sis n silv .had a good time, then played some apples to apples again haha

unfortunatly, there was some lameness that night,
sometimes you just need to give a girl some space, if I dnt tlk or txt u in 2 weeks, its probably cus I dnt
wanna tlk to you just yet. some guys just make everything seem impossible.
it was real sad but thank God I have amazing friends that helped me with this.
huge shout out to Esther and Alisha. I love you girls!
guys need to stop being so indecisive and need to be more forward and when they tell you something, they need to act it aswell. anyways...

monday - esther, justin and eddie had to come over for some more fun, lol JK
they so chilllllll :) just hung out n watched skate vids n stuff :)
had the day off so that was awesome but now, work tomoro. eugh noooo. ha :]

k well I think that's all for tonight

peace
xelliex


ps. lifes good, now I just need someone to cuddle with hehe ;]

grape ice cream?

im still in a good mood. heck yess!!!
so last night esther eddie and justin came over!
we had sucha blast!

lol we played that game Apples to Apples for like 2 hours almost HAHHAH!!!
we couldnt stop laughing at some of teh ridiculous stuff lol.
and well yea
haha :))))))

oh and then singstar, dont even get me started! LOL leesha brought it over and i swear, i have never seen a guy (eddie) sing that song Oh baby baby, by Britney Spears so well and on pitch LOL!! jkjk man Esther so coool haha.
uhgh but yeahh we're gonna try to chill tonight again. Hopefuly it happens.

ohh and, i freaken got me some grape drank! lol ima go "surprise" funnylookingoneupper guy later today and bring him his purple drank!







im happy guys :]
and i dont even know why.
tell me why?!





peace
xelliex

thats not fair.

so this weeks still going good :]
I booked another day for bamboozle. lol
ima leave friday nite instead and hangout for the night instead of leaving saturday morning
I think its a better plan. lol!

anyhow, so...I've been feeling a little awkward lately. I rele don't like it much.
I hate feeling like I'm hurting my friend when I'm not even doing anything.
I hope I'm wrong.

I got to tlk to my friend today about it, he kinda helped me feel a lil better.
I love that guy man. silvs always been there to lend an ear and give advise. lol
but ya, dnt rele know wat to do. I'm doing my best rele I am. but I cnt control wat another person feels.
like I said, hopefuly I'm wrong about this.

but ya anyhow, I love alll my friends :) old ones and new ones.
man it crazy how we all change, I was looking at all my old friends profiles and its just insane.
I'm like the only one who didn't turn out well, like gangter r&b type. ha
I'm glad LOL!

and just so you know, no I'm not sprung on anyone. I just enoy tlken to this guy, and well, I wanna get to him better, so that's what I'm doing k. no feelings involved yet so ya. I apreciate that u care, but dnt wrry.


peace
xelliex

yet one again!

BAMBOOZLE LEFT 09!
ouuu you know i already got my hotel booked!
ha dudes im so ecxited!! deng last year was insane this years going to be way better! atleast i hope lol :]

sooo yahh. im on my lunch. oh, i finaly got a twitter acount thingy haha since everyones doing it, i thought i'd join the bandwagon, so if ur bored i guess, check it out!
twitter.com/ellieEDGE i think thats what it is atleast.

anyhow, hows everyone. conversate!
i need to meet new people, idk ive just been wanting to do something advernterous lately. ha like go to the beach, mountains or something...magic mountain...hu yea?yea?yea? hehe.
as you can probably tell, im kinda energetic atm. my freaken co-worker gave me half of her oatmeal cookie. nooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

idk. lifes just been so much BETTER. its insane in the membrane. i feel so glad to be alive and ugh haha Gods good is'nt he :] last night, barts message was killer. right on the dot. i almost just wanted to stand at one point and shout hah :0)



:P


xelliex

heyboyhey!

:D

haaaaaaa.
well its been awhile... lots happened.
just so u know, I'm so over it. all of it. it just all finally clicked in my head I guess.
I mean really, I'm not going to waste my time being emotionaly toyed with.
I feel so much better!
its kinda sad, I haven't spoken wit him in over a week, but its renewing aswell.
I miss him but, lifes better this way. someone will eventually come along the way :]

also, my dear pastor and friend elio passed away on monday. it rele made me look at things differntly
I think that's y I've been having such a good week. he was a true humble man. so loving and kind.
friday was his memorial service. it was an all night thing. he was so loved! and his 3 kids, my rele good friends, they have got so much love and support from all of us. they've been so strong, I'm so proud of them.
I love you soi. elio n esdras! you guys have a huge chunk of my heart :]


oh &&& I finally got to chil with my homegirl esther!
she soo chill! she also brought her cute cuz n friend. haha
they we're way chill to! and well haha hey boy hey! as hailey would say haha.
so gonna chill them again!

alsooooo, I'm getting a raise! blinks back together! anddd I booked the hotel for bamboozle left! so Xcited. the count down begins 3 months! ha :D
deng. lifes good. I love it and everyone in it :]

church tomoro. can't wait!

peace
xelliex

A LEGACY

u were a humble man from the very beggining. you cared for everyone no matter who we were and what we did. if there's one thing I know for certain, its that u left a legacy behind. a legacy in your 3 childern, in ur grand kids and in all those who you were an inspiration to. uknowingly you taught me to look at life different. to apreciate everything we have, and to trust in the Lord UNCONDITIONALY.

you had every reason to give up on your faith, from having been left alone with ur kids and getting cancer, but you didn't stop that faith. you didn't let the fact that u were sick stop you from giving praise to God. faith. you had faith, a kind of faith that I wish to have and that I'm going to do my best to achieve. 

I know your standing in the Glory of God, still being that faithful humble servant that you were here on earth. we will never forget you, your legacy will live on through your childern and through us.

I'm not gonna​ say rest in peace​,​ cus I know that at this very momen​t your danci​ng & jumpi​ng in peace​ an everl​astin​g peace​.​

we love you, Pasto​r Elio





-​ellie​