wich to burry?

so...me and steven are on a break...

gosh i hate the things i do sometimes...but is it really my fault that i cant forget about you? idk...its no ones fault. i just need a reason for me to stay, show me im worth it. accept me, for who i am. im not perfect, get over that. make me forget about him...

i know i need to better myself, theres always room for improvement. i need to strengthen my realationship with God first, before i get into any relationship with anyone else. i just hate hurtingpeople...i rele do :(

i just pray that i find what im looking for. God give me a sign...please...

 

 

peace
Ellie

i beg for just one more tomorrow

yet again i've lagged in writing in this thing 

well im doing well cant complain, i went to simi today saw my buddies :0) i rele miss everyone..eventhough i see them once a week... =/

so lately i've been torn with some issues..

the future.

its a mysterious abyss that i wish not enter.

sometimes it freaks me out, like i want to know but at the same time i dont...things in the past come back in and out and its tormenting yet at the same times so welcoming.

i had a recent conversation with my current boyfriend, he helps me out a lot and for that im sothankful, he told me to live day by day and not worry so much and just put my future in Gods hands, 

but i cant help it, i do worry, and thats only because of all the feelings involved. mine, this person, that person... it gets tangled. 

i guess im just asking for you friends..if any do read this... to keep me in your prayers, i need direction and guidance from God...i need a sign. i do trust in my Lord, and i know that my future is decided in HIM and in HIM alone. 

my walk is getting better, little by little...the suns always brighter ahead...and thats where im headed :]

peace

ellie 

im hot, your cold...

Jonas bros. HAHA. lame ;)


k so just to update everyone..if anyone even reads this..
lifes been good cant complain.  almost done with school, got a job interview on wednsday at a bank! wish me luck!! hehe

so k onda amigos? platiken me jiji
px extraño a toda la mara de La Igelsia De Dios SimiValley.  los kiero mushhho :]
aunque no los veo o kisas platicemos mucho, los kiero :]

bueno ya ,e voy a nienie ;)


peace
ellie