beating hearts babyyy

haha good song
ughh omgsh i cant begin to describe how awesome life is atm.
i swear GOD is GOOD :D
monday was sucha good day. my boyfran took me outto lunch n a movie &&&& awww thats all i can say hah ;)
THANK YOU JESUS hahah.
o man im just feeling so blessed with life.
&& all mis amigos, im sucha lucky girl to have those few close people inmy life cough cough, izra, trav, migue, and leo ;)
they make my life so much better hahah.
im just so happy i guess haha well 2moro shud be good, after i finish my final stevens gonna pick me u p and we're gonan chill.
awesome.

PEACE!!
ellie

ps. I MISS ALL OF YOU GUYS!

hey there dont hurt me...

why does it seem that every guy i ever end up with, turns out to be soUNDECIDED. im tired of feeling like crap. all i wanted was for a guy to love me for reals, a guy who KNOWS what he wants. and a guy that would treat me like a princess, who'd hold my hand, kiss my forehead and just laugh with me and joke around.
:'(
hey there dont hurt me if you dont know.
i cant change who i am because thats what makes me...me.
you can accept me for who i am or you can leave, but i guarantee you, you'll wish you wouldnt have, you'll end up like the rest of the guys who i shared my heart with and all they did with throw it away. when you see me laugh with my friends and with another guy, you'll see what you lost and what you could've had. so make up your mind...think twice before you speak. and dont think that its easy for me, im hurting inside, i dont want to loose you.

i know he'll never see this but thats what i feel like.

ehhh.




peace
ellie

scratch that

everything is A O K =]
im so glad to say that everything is fine,
my boyfriend and i are doing great :]
haha i guess sometimes you have to go thru things to make
your realtionship stronger
lifes good :]
well today i have an interview at a temp agency, hopefuly they find me a job SOON! haha
oh and tonight,freaken PARTY!! it the freaken weekend baby ima go have me some fun wit my girls n guys. fffyeah!
k well leave sum love on the page


peace
ellie

awhile since i last wrote in this...ugh im so frikin tired...lol ;)
anyhow, just thought id drop some lines on this.
ive been doing good :]
me and my bf have been doing good :D
saturday is our one month anniversary, so im xcited for that!
and its also my friend Laurens wedding, that should be fun :]
well cant wait till friday, my babys spending almost the entire day with me :) xoxo.


anyhow, 
ive realized that i need to change...for reals, and stop procrastinating.
ive also realized that some people...you just cant ever forget, no matter what. i dont think i'll ever tell him up front, or tell anyone else, but deep down...i still miss him, but im happy for him and im glad he's happy for me aswell. i guess thats when you can tell that they are a true friend, and i'drather have him be my friend than nothing else :]


peace
xelliex