This post will start with a vent in the form of a list. If you read my blog and don't want to hear it, then I suggest you click the "x" on the top right corner. Note: This vent is about a lot of people/things. Don't get offended.
- I hate that I don't hear from you in while and then all of a sudden every two weeks you send me a stupid txt with parts of lyrics and expect me to finish the sentence for you. What is up with that?
- I hate guys that have girlfriends and fb chat/txt you single lines like "F U" and "burp". I am like wtf? Again, what is that all about?
- I hate that I reply to ur dumb txt/msgs and expect you to want to start a conversation but instead leave me hanging... If you don't care to know how I have been or if you don't care to answer my "So, how have you been?" Don't txt/msg me!
- I feel like no guy will ever talk to me because of my ex and it really bums me out.
- I am upset that I actually thought you were being more than "nice".
- Being confused is annoying.
- I don't know how to act around you anymore.
- I hate that I feel like I am to blame.
- I hate that I feel that due to circumstances, your view of me was distorted and you didn't really get the chance to see the real me.
- Hoping that I'll get a txt from you/Not having the guts to txt you.
- Feeling like I can't be me around you sucks.
- Student loans SUCK SUCK SUCK
- I hate how insecure you get about everything, not everything is about you.
- If you're so happy in love, stop txting me.
- I used to have so many friends, what happened?
- I hate that I think about your stupid sweet txt msgs
- I feel like I lost my chispa.
Sorry for the long vent, it's not really like me to post stuff like that. If you know me, you know I need to write things out. Anyways, on to good things about this past weekend.
Friday: Moved Alisha all into her new house! So happy for her. Helped her get everything set in her room. The dudes (Korey, Chris, Nick) were over too helping Travis out. It was interesting. A lot of messing around lol. Korey is funny. I like arguing back with him. Guess his jerkness kinda reminds me of my brother's. The guys had a "tattoo party". I got pizza and drinks for all us. Nessa and I stayed over. It was fun. Again, so happy that Leesh finally has a place of her own, and Travis too.
Saturday: I was so busy! Helped Leesh out some more with the moving stuff. Then I had 2 photo shoots that turned into one GIANT photo shoot. Im talking about almost 3 1/2 hours of shooting 15+ people... I was exhausted by the time I was finished. Then I went back to Leesh and Trav's house. Some how Trav and I got to talking and the subject of the guys saying Im mean came up. Apparently all of them think I am mean. Travis said they didn't say it like in a bad way but just that I am a lil mean. I felt horrible. I am so not mean! When I am mean to them, I am just being playfully mean lol. UGHH I blame Christian for this! He taught me all about being mean growing up haha. I think that maybe these guys are used to little girls not standing up for themselves or being able to talk back to them that me being able to have better or equally good come backs/disses is weird to them. I hope the know that 99% of the time I am just joking. I like those guys, real chill. Im just a lil fiesty :)
Sunday: Church pretty much all day! I played the keys. I was so tired, but I love my NLC family! After i was done with church around 5:30 pm I went to Leesha's to get my laptop charger. Ended up staying there and working on my paper for Env. Science. Hailey and Heather came to visit, it was too fun! I had a blast talking to them and finally meeting Heather lol. A lot of stuff was talked about and revealed... LOL. We are gonna hang out on Friday. Should be interesting :)
Monday, April 25, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Rollercoaster
This weekend was filled with ups and downs. I won't talk about it but yea...
Wish it had gone better but that's life.
Friday: Finally went to visit my Esther Sunshine at her new place. I love her. best friend since church camp 06 haha. It was real nice getting to hang out with her, just us two girls. I then later went to meet up with Jessica. That was a fun adventure all in it's self haha. Let's see. First, there was the instant cupcake connection.
We're both a little clumsy haha:
1)I forgot my wallet had to go back and get my car.
2) Jessica kept driving off instead of turning into Denny's hahaha
3) I forgot my wallet again in the car!! hahaha
We could not stop cracking up and how dumb we were LOL.
We pretty much stayed up until 2 in the morning. I had a blast.
Saturday: Did a photo shoot with my cousin Alondra. That was fun but so frikin tiring cus it was an outside shoot and we were goign from place to place. Then I had lunch with Jessica at elephant bar (mmm!). It was delicious and I introduced Jessica to sweet potato fries, she loved them! It was real nice talking to her about life, mostly guy issues and stuff. I wish things had gone better for the both of us in our situations. But I guess that is life. All we can do is learn from it. But anyhow, after that we went back to Trav's and hung out with the guys. Then Jessica had to leave :( I wish she lived closer. Total BFF material haha. I really enjoyed making a new friend :) Jess, if you read this, come back soon!!! lol.
Sunday: Lazy day. Went walking to Macaroni Grill with Nick and Trav. I think everyone was pretty tired and lazy and bored haha cus when we got back, we literally say on the couch for like 2-3 hours haha. Then later when Alisha came back into town we went to watch RIO. I LOVED IT!!!
So that was my weekend. I hope this week goes by fast and quick. It's gonna be a busy one!
Wish it had gone better but that's life.
Friday: Finally went to visit my Esther Sunshine at her new place. I love her. best friend since church camp 06 haha. It was real nice getting to hang out with her, just us two girls. I then later went to meet up with Jessica. That was a fun adventure all in it's self haha. Let's see. First, there was the instant cupcake connection.
We're both a little clumsy haha:
1)I forgot my wallet had to go back and get my car.
2) Jessica kept driving off instead of turning into Denny's hahaha
3) I forgot my wallet again in the car!! hahaha
We could not stop cracking up and how dumb we were LOL.
We pretty much stayed up until 2 in the morning. I had a blast.
Saturday: Did a photo shoot with my cousin Alondra. That was fun but so frikin tiring cus it was an outside shoot and we were goign from place to place. Then I had lunch with Jessica at elephant bar (mmm!). It was delicious and I introduced Jessica to sweet potato fries, she loved them! It was real nice talking to her about life, mostly guy issues and stuff. I wish things had gone better for the both of us in our situations. But I guess that is life. All we can do is learn from it. But anyhow, after that we went back to Trav's and hung out with the guys. Then Jessica had to leave :( I wish she lived closer. Total BFF material haha. I really enjoyed making a new friend :) Jess, if you read this, come back soon!!! lol.
Sunday: Lazy day. Went walking to Macaroni Grill with Nick and Trav. I think everyone was pretty tired and lazy and bored haha cus when we got back, we literally say on the couch for like 2-3 hours haha. Then later when Alisha came back into town we went to watch RIO. I LOVED IT!!!
So that was my weekend. I hope this week goes by fast and quick. It's gonna be a busy one!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Brighter
Today was the first time in a long time that I fell asleep and woke up with a smile on my face.
:) <--- smile!
What the heck? Haha. So far this day has been ruling.
- Yummy strawberry, banana, blueberry smoothie for breakfast
- Nice clients
- At lunch got 2 compliments on my hair :D
- Got asked if I was the piano player at New Life Center and told that they really enjoyed my playing.
AWESOME. Stuff like that never happens to me.
Last night I had a break down and Im really glad my brother called me back 'cus I really needed to talk to someone who would not pass judgement and just be straight forward and real with me. I had been holding back so much anger and emotion but now I feel like I've let some if not most of it go. What's the point of replaying foolish memories in my head if they tear me down?
Oh! I have made some new friends yay! Lately I have been getting to know Jessica. She is such a sweet heart. I feel like we have been friends for much longer, even though we have never "officially" hung out haha. Is that weird? And then there is Nick. He makes me laugh a lot. :) I think we are going to be real good friends, mostly because he used Harry Potter lingo with me haha and he makes me laugh a lot. Wait, I already said that.
Hope this weekend keeps ruling :)
p.s. PROTEGO!
:) <--- smile!
What the heck? Haha. So far this day has been ruling.
- Yummy strawberry, banana, blueberry smoothie for breakfast
- Nice clients
- At lunch got 2 compliments on my hair :D
- Got asked if I was the piano player at New Life Center and told that they really enjoyed my playing.
AWESOME. Stuff like that never happens to me.
Last night I had a break down and Im really glad my brother called me back 'cus I really needed to talk to someone who would not pass judgement and just be straight forward and real with me. I had been holding back so much anger and emotion but now I feel like I've let some if not most of it go. What's the point of replaying foolish memories in my head if they tear me down?
Oh! I have made some new friends yay! Lately I have been getting to know Jessica. She is such a sweet heart. I feel like we have been friends for much longer, even though we have never "officially" hung out haha. Is that weird? And then there is Nick. He makes me laugh a lot. :) I think we are going to be real good friends, mostly because he used Harry Potter lingo with me haha and he makes me laugh a lot. Wait, I already said that.
Hope this weekend keeps ruling :)
p.s. PROTEGO!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Writing saves
Writing and music are the only ways that I can truly showcase all that I am feeling. If it wasn't for writing, I don't know where I would be today. Here is a poem/piece that I wrote today.
Im over it. It is done and dealt with.
Im a crappy person? alright. Im a jealous person? sure. Im an idiot? Yea ok. I made myself like this? I did.
I don’t need to hear what a person thinks of me if it is not going to edify my life in a positive light. So take your bag of pride with you and move along. You can try to paint a picture of me but it won’t be the real, authentic and true picture of me. I have my own set of brushes, I don’t need yours.
Im over it. It is done and dealt with.
Im a crappy person? alright. Im a jealous person? sure. Im an idiot? Yea ok. I made myself like this? I did.
I don’t need to hear what a person thinks of me if it is not going to edify my life in a positive light. So take your bag of pride with you and move along. You can try to paint a picture of me but it won’t be the real, authentic and true picture of me. I have my own set of brushes, I don’t need yours.
Monday, April 11, 2011
New friendships, Fun, and More
This weekend was pretty amazing. I had so much fun and it was real cool finally getting to hang out with Trav's friends and feeling like they were my friends too, not just ppl i know. I really liked that the most about this weekend. I love making new friends and I felt like I did :)
Friday:
Facedown Fest day 1 was cool.
- Adventure time with Trav, Chris, Javi, Korey and my lil sis and I.
- Donuts everywhere! Not kiddign you, ic ounted in the span of 2 minutes, there was 5 donut shops, I guess Pomona loves their donuts.
- Toms burger=YUM
- HANDS was amazing. Lil sis really liked them too so i bought her a shirt.
- WAR OF AGES!!!!!!!! I will always frikin love them!
- Hotel hangs:
- Why is there a phone next to the toilet!?
- Chris, Trav and I watching the Genie bra Infomercial for like 10 minutes HAHA
- Korey with a sad lil kid face" Ellie, can you fix my button??" LOL!
Saturday:
Facedown Fest day 2 ruled!!!
- Parking lot picnics :)
- Adventure time round two
- Strabux fun
- Pokerist w/Javi
- Antique stores galore
- Javi and his "Hey GIRLLL, I have a 2010 blue Nissan Sentra...." pick up haha
- DYNASTY! I really liked them.
- CALL TO PRESERVE. OMG best show ever! well not ever, but I was so stoked on life that I finally got to see them, but I'm kinda bummed they won;t be playing anymore.
- For Today was good. Mattie Montgomery is so spirt led. Awesome.
Sunday:
Lazy/fun day.
- IHOP
- Weigh in with Nick, Leesh and Trav. We r making a contest to see who can loose 10 lbs first. We are trying to motivate each other to lose weight okay! :)
- Walking to starbux
- Disney scene it. Nick and I won. Woop woop!
- Youtube surfing
- Sal-sa?!
- Catchphrase for like an hour.
- Ok bye!..... 1 hour later... still outside... talking. Ok bye for reals this time!
Over all, very fun weekend. I enjoyed all of it.
and here's to new friendships :)
Friday:
Facedown Fest day 1 was cool.
- Adventure time with Trav, Chris, Javi, Korey and my lil sis and I.
- Donuts everywhere! Not kiddign you, ic ounted in the span of 2 minutes, there was 5 donut shops, I guess Pomona loves their donuts.
- Toms burger=YUM
- HANDS was amazing. Lil sis really liked them too so i bought her a shirt.
- WAR OF AGES!!!!!!!! I will always frikin love them!
- Hotel hangs:
- Why is there a phone next to the toilet!?
- Chris, Trav and I watching the Genie bra Infomercial for like 10 minutes HAHA
- Korey with a sad lil kid face" Ellie, can you fix my button??" LOL!
Saturday:
Facedown Fest day 2 ruled!!!
- Parking lot picnics :)
- Adventure time round two
- Strabux fun
- Pokerist w/Javi
- Antique stores galore
- Javi and his "Hey GIRLLL, I have a 2010 blue Nissan Sentra...." pick up haha
- DYNASTY! I really liked them.
- CALL TO PRESERVE. OMG best show ever! well not ever, but I was so stoked on life that I finally got to see them, but I'm kinda bummed they won;t be playing anymore.
- For Today was good. Mattie Montgomery is so spirt led. Awesome.
Sunday:
Lazy/fun day.
- IHOP
- Weigh in with Nick, Leesh and Trav. We r making a contest to see who can loose 10 lbs first. We are trying to motivate each other to lose weight okay! :)
- Walking to starbux
- Disney scene it. Nick and I won. Woop woop!
- Youtube surfing
- Sal-sa?!
- Catchphrase for like an hour.
- Ok bye!..... 1 hour later... still outside... talking. Ok bye for reals this time!
Over all, very fun weekend. I enjoyed all of it.
and here's to new friendships :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Here's to FEBE
Stoked for tomorrow! I am sure this will be an eventful weekend. Friday and Saturday Facedown Fest and Sunday I am playing on the Northwest campus worship team. I am going to be SO TIRED but, I am sure I will pull through and survive haha.
So last night I had like an hour long chat session with oen of my old best friends, mi negro, Alex! lol. I miss him so much... as well as all the other Febe guys. It was real nice talking to him. I love how we can just pick up where we left off and still have the same amount of trust with each other. I think it shows how much of a bond we all have with one another, like true family.
Febe was such an amazing and fun experience that I got to live. All those memories I can never forget. I learned so much from my 4 brothers/bandmates (Chris, Alex, Jeorge, Jesse). Especially Christian and Alex. Sometimes I wish we could turn back time and just keep going on, but than, this wouldn't be "real life". I hope that soon we can all get together :) Here are a few pix from that time.
Febe was such an amazing and fun experience that I got to live. All those memories I can never forget. I learned so much from my 4 brothers/bandmates (Chris, Alex, Jeorge, Jesse). Especially Christian and Alex. Sometimes I wish we could turn back time and just keep going on, but than, this wouldn't be "real life". I hope that soon we can all get together :) Here are a few pix from that time.
Here's to all the laughs, nerves, cries, frustrations, gas money spent, car rides, arguments, friendships, hours of practice, adventures, smiles, tears, talks, and pranks.
I love you all. Always & forever.
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