Whatever.... This is a sucky post.

So pretty much scratch out everything that I said in the previous post. I am pissed. I am sad. I am annoyed and irritated and I am upset. Today is my 22 nd birthday and what I thought was going to be an awesome new year of life, has already started out crappy. The job That was lined up for me fell through. So now I am jobless. My last pay check is on the 31st. Sigh. This really does suck. I hate being a Debbie downer. I hate being stressed :/ I am sad that today is supposed to be a happy day but all I'm feeling is anger and sadness.... This post is a huge rant... Sorry. I hate that one of the reasons I am upset is because I can't help but remember my 19th birthday. I hate that birthday. I hate that year of my life. I don't even know why I am remembering it. Maybe it's cus I have lost complete touch with this person... But it was for the better.... Right? For some retarded reason I was expecting a txt or MSG from him...how stupid. All I can think of is having breakfast at Corner Bakery and him buying my blue Vans and spending the day together... Efff. I need to stop... Sometimes I think that I remember most when another person shows interest... And then I begin to panic inside because I can't let anybody in. Never. Again. Ya know? Thats what I think sometimes, and it bums me out. Sorry. I hope I don't bum anybody else... I'll get through it... This week has just been hard to get through.

Laid Off/Weekend Re-Cap/Cheers.

I just got laid off.

10 days before my birthday and I ain’t even mad about it. I actually smiled when I read the e-mail from my boss LOL!!

I secured a better job 2 weeks ago. Better pay, benefits, plus gas and milage, plus a possible opportunity for travel and a company car and it works around my school schedule. HAHAHAHAHA I am not mad, upset or worried at all.

The past (almost) 4 years have been ridiculous! Working for a person who doesn’t appreciate you, awknowledge your education and belittles you because of your age is not something I am sad to let go of. I am so ready for this new journey. Actually. I am excited!!

 

On another note,

 

This weekend RULED! It was interesting to say the least. Diego took us all around LA, Hollywood and stuff. Here are some of my favorite parts.

 

• Listening to Diego's playlist: Disney's Up soundtrack, Tigers Jaw, Defeater, Regina Spektor
• Spontaneous trips to the observataory.... o wait... roads closed! lol
• Spontaneous trip to the LA ZOO!!
• Running around the zoo trying to find the big cats before they put them away... we got there at 4:40... They put the big animals away at 5.
• Adorable little "IM ZITED!!!!!" 4 year old at the Meerkat exhibit <3 (how in the world do you spell meerkat? mearcat?)
• THE GROVE! The "Farmer's Market" is awesome!!!
• Alisha giving me an axiety attack because she just HAD to have me eat at the same place as her...
• Waiting 30 minutes to get my food..... =/
• Talks about "just kidding!"
• West Hollywood.
• Thrashed in West Hollywood!!
• Watching one of my best friends preform !!! <3 <3 <3 <3
• Diego and I cracking up at the wierd chic rocking out HARD.
• Diego, Leesha and I dancing in the corner of a lesbian bar.... yep. We know what's up.
• After party at Dennys.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
• "Here are your chopsticks" Waiter hands us our silverware... and yes... he is Asian.
• Leesh and I's failed attempt at a high five=uncontollable non-stop laughter for 30 minutes. Looking like total idiots.

Over all I am quite happy. I love everyone in my life. I love my new friendships <3 I love being young and just being spontaneous. Not worrying too much over little things and just going with the flow. Here's to a new year of life, a new job, new friendships, new loves, new clothes, new shoes, new co-workers, new bosses, new everything. Bring it on 22. Bring. It. On.

 

Cheers.