Kinda weird

I just looked at the "Stats" on my blog and realized o have over 35 views on just my last post... haha I didn't hink anyone really read or even looked at it. haha.  If you read my blog leave me a cmnt haha. I wanna know who lol.
I have been really into Tumblr lately.  If you have one follow me.  It's a lot easier to use than this blog, but, I have like over 3 years worth of crap i've written on here, so this will be my "real" blog and my tumblr will be my "fun" blog lol. Click to follow me!.

Work: It's been pretty boring lately and slow, which is odd for the end of the month.  My boss really needs to consider getting an online calendar or some kind of program that I can do that with out having to call the main office.  I think that is what is causing some delay in filing. ehh.

School: I have class tonight.  Yay.  Can't wait to hear what huge words and lame-long stories my teacher has for us.

Fun: I am going to have a very very busy weekend!! Playing at church on Saturday have to b there form 7 am - 12 p.m., then photo shoot at 2-4 (Im still kinda nervous about it but it should be a good experience), then Sunday im playing again have to be there prety much all day from 7 am - 7 pm haha but I love doing worship and it will be my first official time playing there as a member :)

 Facedown Fest is coming up next weekend!!! It is goign to be a blast... I hope.  So far it will be Ness, Trav, Chris and maybe Nick.  I am not even gonna think about what crazy shinanigans is gonan happen LOL. Oh, and it's Trav's bday that weekend so yay! :)

kthnxbye.

Sniffles

I hate being sick! :(
I have like 70% hearing loss thnx to my sinuses on top of my already perforated left ear drum

Friday: was alright. Got in a stupid fight with Leesh.  My fault. Had a good time on the "double date". Marcel is a weirdo! lol.  Sucker Punch was AWESOME and the sound track was dope.  I purchased it on iTunes. I had no idea Emily Browning sang.  I love her voice.  I hope she releases an album.

Saturday:  Met with a client.  Im real excited for this photo shoot.  It will be my first boudoir session.  So im kinda nervous but im sure it will go good.  Saturday night we (Nessa, Travis and I) went to the Gate.  Good local show.  Afterwards we (Ness, Travis, Marcel, Tommy and I) went to Dennys and Leesh met up with us.  These kids are fareaken crazy!!!  IDK if I can keep up with them lol.  It is weird that I am in my 20's but still hang out with lil teenagers? haha.

Sunday:  Church. Lunch. Then bought Disney's Scene It! and played for like an hour an a half hour.  Travis and I won, like always :p Also made up with Leesh.  I mean we are sisters.  And we both have our retarded and mean moments (mostly me) but in the end, we love each other like family.   Really couldn't ask for a better friend, even though she went talking to her parents who now probably hate me.. oh well LOL.  Friends till thee end.  No matter what.  Like I said 3 years ago "We beat the odds".  Forgive, Forget, and Don't Slow Down.

It's Friday.

Got to get down on Friday.

Work: This week went by okay.  Im still real backed up at work.  It freaken sucks... I hate being the only one that does what I do, especially since we have a bazzilion clients... well not really, but ya get me.  It's all on my shoulders...

bleh.

School:  School was alright this week. I really don't like my environmental teacher.  She is such a smart alec.  I mean she is funny but she always uses these big words and is sucha  motor mouth.  And she admits she is too. Idk. My math teacher however, is way cool, really enjoy his class.

Fun:  Not much this week cus I have been sick, but this weekend should be more than interesting. I finally agreed to go on a "date" with Trav, but its a friend date and its a "double date", Marcel and my sister, eugh. lol Tonight should be fun though :)

Yay Monday! -_-

This weekend was perfect!!!!!

Friday highlights: We had so much fun! Thank you everyone who was able to come and celebrate! NO BODY LIKES YOU WHEN YOUR 23.

- Last minute scavenger hunt Jen and I made for Leesh

- Yummy pretty cupcakes

- Disneyland tickets!!!
- Blink Bday cake!!!

- All my best and close girl friends here in Bakerfiled <3

- I can't do shots

- Jen and Esther pouring tons of Malibu in Alisha's drink everytime she turned aroud

- Silly picture time

- Trav, Zach, and Sammy's gay photos

- Sleepover!! uncontolable laughing.

- I ripped my shorts

Saturday highlights:
-Waking up at 5 in the morning!
- Starbucks!!
- Listening to The Used!! WE DON"T CARE WHAT YOU SAY, THAT WAS A GOOD ALBUM! lol
- We're almost there!
- YAY!!!! WE R HERE! Mickey 3C

- Minnie mouse ears

- Weird skanks

- Thee most amazing churro ever.

- AMAZING fireworks show, made me tear up.

- Esemeralda the fortune teller.. right.

- Space mountain... omg long wait  but so worth it!!

- Denny's on the way home... slowest waitress ever!!

On our way back home we had to drive through thee scariest weather ever.  Heavy rain with bad windshield wipers is not a good combo.  We hydro-planed like 10 times!!! Travis was being so brave. The wind was crazy, I thought there was going to be a tornado.  Then it started to snow! And all of this while we were fighting to stay awake, well I was, Nessa and Leesh knocked out.  Jen was in and out.  We tried talking to Trav so he wouldn't get sleepy.  He said he was fine. We made it home alive so i guess its all good :)





Sunday we went to watch Paul.  It was good,  Now back to "The Real World".  Math class tonight bleh.

Final Clue

Yesterday was alright. Not much going on for St. Patty's Day.
Work: Boring long day, too much to do :(

School: I had my first Environmental science class last night and in the first 10 minutes i nearly punched my teacher in the face... well not really but I did stand my ground.  Okay, so you know how I have the iPad 2 and I bought specifically for school and business well, while the teacher is introducing the class she says "turn off all your electronic devices no screens on the table..."  I still had both my cell and iPad in my bag.  She goes on to say "I PREFER if you use paper and pen", She then noticed a guy who had his laptop out, which is pretty normal for college students, since we use them for notes and pretty much everything, she told him to put it away... you could tell the guy didn't really want to, as it is his academic tool.  Well so he puts it away and the teacher asks " Does anyone have any questions?" So I raised my hand and said " Yeah, I do.  Im planning on using my iPad to take notes and do my school work, so is it okat if i use it? because you said you PREFER to use paper and pen but some of us, like me, don't feel like buying a notebook and killing another tree when i have a perfectly good writting tool".  She just looked at me and turned all red.  I don't think anyone has ever questioned her.  Well she goes on to say how she PREFERS and blah blah so I asked again, "Ok,  So I can use it".  She looks at me and was about to say something when I cut her off and said" Because i paid a lot of money for this to use here. in school. in all my classes."  The teacher laughed and said oh well that must suck to buy something you don't need for this class... I cut her off again and said " Because if  you don't let me use my iPad, I WILL BE UPSET AND I WILL HAVE TO BRING IT UP WITH THE DEAN AND WHOEVER ELSE IS IN CHARGE.  She just turned bright red and said, well i prefer pen and paper but i will leave it up to you. Then she turned to the guy who had a laptop and asked him if it would be a problem if he didn't use his laptop and he said "well, i usually take all my notes on there and everything but... if you don't want me to use it then i guess..."

GAH.  Like why did she make such a big deal about it.  And why was that guy so chicken to say, hey lady this is  my academic tool and if i don't want to use paper and pen i don't have to. Geeze.  Isn't this an environmental science class?!  Shouldn't she promote the use of laptops and what  not instead of using paper?! Anyways... that was pretty much it.  Other than that the class is alright.  doesn't seem like its going to be hard.

When I got home Leesh came over and we watched Boondock Saint. One of my favorite movies of all time!

Kay well that is pretty much it.  Can't wait for tonight! Leesh's early birthda BBQ!! woo hoo cupcakes! <3 haha
and the SURPRISE! ;) ;) :)

CLUE#4

Yesterday was a pretty chill day.  Work wasn't too bad.  I actually did like no work haha.  I just could not get into it! which is bad.  So today  I have a lot to do.  I got to play bass at church last night which was awesome, because it had been forever and it was my first Wednesday back.  We had a great alter call.  My heart melted when I prayed over this little girl.  She was so precious.  

Anyways, Travis got out early and he took me to church and afterwards we went to Denny's.  He has been acting different lately, in a  good way.  He has  been hanging out with his guy friends a lot lately which is GOOD.  That is what he has needed.  I can tell because his attitude is a lot better and he doesn't get as grumpy as usual.  I can see he is making an effort to really change.  I think our separation has been a real real good and much needed thing.  I don't think I am at the point where I want to get back with him or be in a relationship, but it is looking like a better possibility.  Who knows? Only God. Im just content right now and I guess that is all that matters.  Oh Marcus decided last minute to join us.  It was funny.  Poor guy was like half asleep but he insisted on coming, even if it was just for like 10 minutes.  I think maybe he was feeling lonely or wanted to talk to Travis about something...idlk.... Okay. Back to work!

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CLUE #3

Yesterday was a nice day.  Work wasn't too bad, just boring and long.  After work I went to my tattoo appt.  I love it! Still got one more session to do.  I love Salty at sacred Gypsy.  All of her work is fantastic.  If you are wanting to get some ink done in Bakersfield, definitely check Salty, from Sacred Gypsy. 

After that I rushed home to change and went to see Take Me Home Tonight with Alisha and Travis.  I liked it a lot.  Toffer Grace is such a cutie and I love Ana Faris.  

Oh and Travis was nice for once and bought Alisha and I a huge Diet Coke and popcorn :D and then the bathroom incident happened.... I can't disclsoe what happen but lets just say that there were tears in our eyes, too much laughter not enough "going to the bathroom" and people outside the bathroom thinking naughty things... HAHAHA. Before heading home Alisha and I stoppd by Taco Bell, cus we were STARVING! We ended having a fun conversation with my little sis about stuff.  Overall a good night.  

Oh and Bart txt me this morning asking if I could play bass tonight :D im excited!! It's my first night back at youth  and I get to play :)

CLUE#2

Yesterday I started the new quarter.  I have Math 121 and Env 151.  Last night I had my math class, which is SUPER EASY thank God!!!  I got stuck at a table with a bunch of way older people... they are nice... but not the brightest either... One of the ladies could not understand what a math pattern was... it was kinda sad. I tried to explain to her over and over again the answer and how I got it. O well.  Oh and it was neat 'cus I finally got to use my iPad2! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!  I was using the Penultimate App the entire class to do my work and notes, so much easier than paper and pen. :) Other than work and school, that was pretty much my entire day.

                            

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Clue #1

Ok so Leading up to Alisha's bday I will be posting up clues to the grand surprise at the end of my blogs this week. HINT: do re me fa sol la ti do

I hate this time change! Gr.
I could not sleep last night and I had such a hard time waking up this morning.  Good thing I'm in my own office and don't have to worry about my boss, plus I think he is still on vacation.  Anyways, this past weekend was fun.

Friday after work I went to Bestbuy and waited for almost 3 hours to get my iPad 2!!! It was nuts.  I was one of the last eight people in bakersfield to get the wi-fi iPad.  I initially I wanted the 32gig...but, being that when they finally got to me there was only eight 64 wi-fi left, I took it and ended up with a better one... but had to put out more cash then I intended too but I'm glad i did 'cus i friggin love it!  After Vanessa, Alisha and I went to Marcel's show.  A lot of gay bands but Marcel's band did great and Hardcore Greg's band was entertaining.  It was just real fun hanging with Chris and Travis.  I think Friday was the most Alisha or I have ever heard or spoken to Chris lol.  He is too funny in his own way  I hope we get to hang out with him more.

Saturday I did a photo shoot with Sam.  It was a lot of fun but real tiring. begin that he is an art student and goes to AI it made me feel good about my photography when he said my lighting was right on.  I really would like to take a few classes to help me improve.  Leesh came over while Sam and I were wrapping up.  Then Leesh and I went to Camille's yummy!  After that Alisha made me go to her parents house for some "business opportunity" thing, Esther and Zach met us there.  It turned out to be FHTM - Network Marketing... I have mixed feelings about it.  It is pretty much a pyramid scheme... which I don't really like, but it is also all networking online and no actual "sales".  The FHTM people gave a presentation on it.. idk... seems to good to be true, plus you have to pay $100 to "get started".  Leesha's step dad paid for her entry so we'll see how it goes.  If she does make any money off of it I will join. Oh and Esther and I almost had a freak laugh attack during the presentation!! We are the worst at those... she kept putting the Smirnoff stickers on my legs and i was trying so hard not to laugh... haha.

Sunday Marcel came over and we played badminton and watched Diary of a wimpy kid then star bux then walked through the promenade while Marcel was "hardcore" stomping his way through everything. That kid is too much! but gotta love him.  Seems like he and my sister really like each other... gahh :p lol

I just don't know

Lately I have been having mixed feelings.

I actually kind of miss him at times... but when we hang out, I get annoyed super easy.
What's wrong with me.  Am I really that messed up? Because of my past?
I just don't know.  I try flirting and be interested for reals... but then I get random txt messages from the guy who really, really broke my heart and there I go again feeling hopeless and incapable of loving another person on that level.

My lil sis is currently talking to a boy, he is so so so cute and sweet. I love that kid.  It's weird tho cus he was my lil friend first lol. But my point is, deep inside of me when I see them or she talks to me about how sweet and cute he is, I feel like... wow, that could have been me with someone... or I think yea I remember those days...
It kind of brings me down a little inside =/

I just want someone to love, and hang out with, do cartwheels with, make music, play games, get mad and then make up with.  But I feel like I cant, I won't let that happen.  Sometimes I just want to leave this town and meet new people and make new friends because seems that everything is this town is stuck up or not interested.  I don't know.  Maybe it is just me.

Well Sorry I speak French!

This last weekend was a b l a s t!
A few highlights:

- Duncan, "Um... can you turn the music down... I have a headache".

- Traffic, then BUMP... there goes my tire... had to pullover.  Duncan was the hero and tried to put my spare on
thank God Metro Service drove by and put on my spare... but only to realize my spare was also flat... had to get off on the next exit to get air.

- Duncan, "Um... how much longer?"

- Unexpected Q&A with the youth kids... it was real cute.  Im so touched that I can be an inspiration to these kids, especially the girls :)

- HOTEL, MOTEL, HOLIDAY IN!

- Duncan walking around in a bath robe

- Cheesecake factory waiter "So bone in or bone out?... Bone in add flavor.

- Late night talks in the girls room.. "Something smells weird!", "Douche",  "Um..well sorry i speak French!"... HAHAHAHAHA

- Walking down Hollywood Blvd.

- Duncan, " Um... can we sit for while...?"

- On our way back home, Ellie, "So what was your favorite part Trever?", Trever, " I really liked the trip there". Alisha and I cracked up cus of all the things we did thats what he liked the most haha.


Oh man, Good times.

:)

On another note,

APRIL FOOLISHNESS HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED!
I am so STOKED!

Your such a violent person...

Leaving to LA today! woopwoop!
It should be a lot of fun! 7 ppl in one hotel suite... oh boy... I can't wait to see what crazy shinanigans we will pull off this time.  All I can say is that this time there will be no one buried deep in the bush.... literately, haha.  Im also really looking forward to leading worship.  It has been such a long time.  I miss doing that.

Also, just wanted to say how much I miss my brother.  It's crazy cus he is such a d-bag, but when it comes down to it, he does have a real heart... somewhere.  I got a call from him 2 nights ago and we just talked and talked.  It started out because on Monday some skank that spread rumors about him, me and my band in high school.  That girl ruined my year!!!  I didn't talk or see him for like 8 months!!!!!!!  That is how stupid and effed up the situation was.  Well, i posted something on FB about how i would never add her...nope.com, and some girl I had choir class posted that she remembered all that and how funny it was when I slammed that skank on the bleachers... HAHA...I promise... I AM TOO NICE TO EVER HIT ANYONE, besides my sis (lol).  I was so angry with that girl and she would not stop talking about all the ish she made up and had just had it up to here with her bs.  So I got up and just slammed her on the bleachers and told her to "APOLOGIZE AND STOP SAYING CRAP!!" she just started crying and was shaking hahaha....I felt bad but at the same time she pretty much had it coming.  She is lucky I did not punch her cus that could have gone real bad.  But the point is, Chris is the only person I have ever committed an act of violence for... LOL And so we just talked about how crazy that was haha.  I miss those long convos.  And it's sad because I never call him... he calls me.  I need to put more effort into it... but at the same time it shows that he really does miss me too (:

Okay well im supposed to be working not blogging! :p