CLUE#4

Yesterday was a pretty chill day.  Work wasn't too bad.  I actually did like no work haha.  I just could not get into it! which is bad.  So today  I have a lot to do.  I got to play bass at church last night which was awesome, because it had been forever and it was my first Wednesday back.  We had a great alter call.  My heart melted when I prayed over this little girl.  She was so precious.  

Anyways, Travis got out early and he took me to church and afterwards we went to Denny's.  He has been acting different lately, in a  good way.  He has  been hanging out with his guy friends a lot lately which is GOOD.  That is what he has needed.  I can tell because his attitude is a lot better and he doesn't get as grumpy as usual.  I can see he is making an effort to really change.  I think our separation has been a real real good and much needed thing.  I don't think I am at the point where I want to get back with him or be in a relationship, but it is looking like a better possibility.  Who knows? Only God. Im just content right now and I guess that is all that matters.  Oh Marcus decided last minute to join us.  It was funny.  Poor guy was like half asleep but he insisted on coming, even if it was just for like 10 minutes.  I think maybe he was feeling lonely or wanted to talk to Travis about something...idlk.... Okay. Back to work!

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CLUE #3

Yesterday was a nice day.  Work wasn't too bad, just boring and long.  After work I went to my tattoo appt.  I love it! Still got one more session to do.  I love Salty at sacred Gypsy.  All of her work is fantastic.  If you are wanting to get some ink done in Bakersfield, definitely check Salty, from Sacred Gypsy. 

After that I rushed home to change and went to see Take Me Home Tonight with Alisha and Travis.  I liked it a lot.  Toffer Grace is such a cutie and I love Ana Faris.  

Oh and Travis was nice for once and bought Alisha and I a huge Diet Coke and popcorn :D and then the bathroom incident happened.... I can't disclsoe what happen but lets just say that there were tears in our eyes, too much laughter not enough "going to the bathroom" and people outside the bathroom thinking naughty things... HAHAHA. Before heading home Alisha and I stoppd by Taco Bell, cus we were STARVING! We ended having a fun conversation with my little sis about stuff.  Overall a good night.  

Oh and Bart txt me this morning asking if I could play bass tonight :D im excited!! It's my first night back at youth  and I get to play :)

CLUE#2

Yesterday I started the new quarter.  I have Math 121 and Env 151.  Last night I had my math class, which is SUPER EASY thank God!!!  I got stuck at a table with a bunch of way older people... they are nice... but not the brightest either... One of the ladies could not understand what a math pattern was... it was kinda sad. I tried to explain to her over and over again the answer and how I got it. O well.  Oh and it was neat 'cus I finally got to use my iPad2! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!  I was using the Penultimate App the entire class to do my work and notes, so much easier than paper and pen. :) Other than work and school, that was pretty much my entire day.

                            

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Clue #1

Ok so Leading up to Alisha's bday I will be posting up clues to the grand surprise at the end of my blogs this week. HINT: do re me fa sol la ti do

I hate this time change! Gr.
I could not sleep last night and I had such a hard time waking up this morning.  Good thing I'm in my own office and don't have to worry about my boss, plus I think he is still on vacation.  Anyways, this past weekend was fun.

Friday after work I went to Bestbuy and waited for almost 3 hours to get my iPad 2!!! It was nuts.  I was one of the last eight people in bakersfield to get the wi-fi iPad.  I initially I wanted the 32gig...but, being that when they finally got to me there was only eight 64 wi-fi left, I took it and ended up with a better one... but had to put out more cash then I intended too but I'm glad i did 'cus i friggin love it!  After Vanessa, Alisha and I went to Marcel's show.  A lot of gay bands but Marcel's band did great and Hardcore Greg's band was entertaining.  It was just real fun hanging with Chris and Travis.  I think Friday was the most Alisha or I have ever heard or spoken to Chris lol.  He is too funny in his own way  I hope we get to hang out with him more.

Saturday I did a photo shoot with Sam.  It was a lot of fun but real tiring. begin that he is an art student and goes to AI it made me feel good about my photography when he said my lighting was right on.  I really would like to take a few classes to help me improve.  Leesh came over while Sam and I were wrapping up.  Then Leesh and I went to Camille's yummy!  After that Alisha made me go to her parents house for some "business opportunity" thing, Esther and Zach met us there.  It turned out to be FHTM - Network Marketing... I have mixed feelings about it.  It is pretty much a pyramid scheme... which I don't really like, but it is also all networking online and no actual "sales".  The FHTM people gave a presentation on it.. idk... seems to good to be true, plus you have to pay $100 to "get started".  Leesha's step dad paid for her entry so we'll see how it goes.  If she does make any money off of it I will join. Oh and Esther and I almost had a freak laugh attack during the presentation!! We are the worst at those... she kept putting the Smirnoff stickers on my legs and i was trying so hard not to laugh... haha.

Sunday Marcel came over and we played badminton and watched Diary of a wimpy kid then star bux then walked through the promenade while Marcel was "hardcore" stomping his way through everything. That kid is too much! but gotta love him.  Seems like he and my sister really like each other... gahh :p lol

I just don't know

Lately I have been having mixed feelings.

I actually kind of miss him at times... but when we hang out, I get annoyed super easy.
What's wrong with me.  Am I really that messed up? Because of my past?
I just don't know.  I try flirting and be interested for reals... but then I get random txt messages from the guy who really, really broke my heart and there I go again feeling hopeless and incapable of loving another person on that level.

My lil sis is currently talking to a boy, he is so so so cute and sweet. I love that kid.  It's weird tho cus he was my lil friend first lol. But my point is, deep inside of me when I see them or she talks to me about how sweet and cute he is, I feel like... wow, that could have been me with someone... or I think yea I remember those days...
It kind of brings me down a little inside =/

I just want someone to love, and hang out with, do cartwheels with, make music, play games, get mad and then make up with.  But I feel like I cant, I won't let that happen.  Sometimes I just want to leave this town and meet new people and make new friends because seems that everything is this town is stuck up or not interested.  I don't know.  Maybe it is just me.

Well Sorry I speak French!

This last weekend was a b l a s t!
A few highlights:

- Duncan, "Um... can you turn the music down... I have a headache".

- Traffic, then BUMP... there goes my tire... had to pullover.  Duncan was the hero and tried to put my spare on
thank God Metro Service drove by and put on my spare... but only to realize my spare was also flat... had to get off on the next exit to get air.

- Duncan, "Um... how much longer?"

- Unexpected Q&A with the youth kids... it was real cute.  Im so touched that I can be an inspiration to these kids, especially the girls :)

- HOTEL, MOTEL, HOLIDAY IN!

- Duncan walking around in a bath robe

- Cheesecake factory waiter "So bone in or bone out?... Bone in add flavor.

- Late night talks in the girls room.. "Something smells weird!", "Douche",  "Um..well sorry i speak French!"... HAHAHAHAHA

- Walking down Hollywood Blvd.

- Duncan, " Um... can we sit for while...?"

- On our way back home, Ellie, "So what was your favorite part Trever?", Trever, " I really liked the trip there". Alisha and I cracked up cus of all the things we did thats what he liked the most haha.


Oh man, Good times.

:)

On another note,

APRIL FOOLISHNESS HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED!
I am so STOKED!

Your such a violent person...

Leaving to LA today! woopwoop!
It should be a lot of fun! 7 ppl in one hotel suite... oh boy... I can't wait to see what crazy shinanigans we will pull off this time.  All I can say is that this time there will be no one buried deep in the bush.... literately, haha.  Im also really looking forward to leading worship.  It has been such a long time.  I miss doing that.

Also, just wanted to say how much I miss my brother.  It's crazy cus he is such a d-bag, but when it comes down to it, he does have a real heart... somewhere.  I got a call from him 2 nights ago and we just talked and talked.  It started out because on Monday some skank that spread rumors about him, me and my band in high school.  That girl ruined my year!!!  I didn't talk or see him for like 8 months!!!!!!!  That is how stupid and effed up the situation was.  Well, i posted something on FB about how i would never add her...nope.com, and some girl I had choir class posted that she remembered all that and how funny it was when I slammed that skank on the bleachers... HAHA...I promise... I AM TOO NICE TO EVER HIT ANYONE, besides my sis (lol).  I was so angry with that girl and she would not stop talking about all the ish she made up and had just had it up to here with her bs.  So I got up and just slammed her on the bleachers and told her to "APOLOGIZE AND STOP SAYING CRAP!!" she just started crying and was shaking hahaha....I felt bad but at the same time she pretty much had it coming.  She is lucky I did not punch her cus that could have gone real bad.  But the point is, Chris is the only person I have ever committed an act of violence for... LOL And so we just talked about how crazy that was haha.  I miss those long convos.  And it's sad because I never call him... he calls me.  I need to put more effort into it... but at the same time it shows that he really does miss me too (:

Okay well im supposed to be working not blogging! :p