I am done with you. Done with your blame game, your pious self, your fakeness and your self righteousness. I really don't give a cent if people read this. It might be immature, but since I was 13 I had to act like an adult and hide things in, but today, I am done with that. I am done letting you make people think you are someone you are not.
Mom,
I am an amazing daughter. Despite all that you say, I know that any one would love to have me as a daughter. I've never in my life done any drugs. Never been drunk. I believe in purity. I go to church. I am active in church. I volunteered my free time on Friday nights to give free voice lessons to your church choir. I graduated high school with honors. I got my associated degree three weeks after I turned 18. I got a job at a law firm as a Paralegal two weeks after. I maintained my job and even made it to the point where my boss trusted me to have my own office, in a different building, away from him and I managed it and a secretary twice my age for about a year while I was only 21. I got laid off October 31st due to the firm slowing down. I didn't quit or get fired. I am still in college. I don't know about you, but I don't know many people my own age who have accomplished half of what I have done... not to say I am better than anyone else, because I am not.
Today, I am finally drawing the line. I never in my life thought that you could sink so low. You've done many stupid things to me throughout out my life, but today, I am done putting up with it. If I ever become a mother, I WILL BE NOTHING LIKE YOU. I will never force my daughter to quit roller skating... because "girls aren't supposed to skate". I will never force my daughter to do ballet, jazz dance, gymnastics, and cheerleading, 'cus thats what "girl are supposed to do". I will never ever ask my daughter or son to give me their personal information so that I can get government money because I am sketchy and don't report that I have a business and want free money. No! I will never do that. I will also never blackmail my own child and threaten to throw them out on the street, knowing that they haven't even received any unemployment benefits, so that I can benefit from their misfortune.
There are so many messed up things that you do and you act like your'e a saint. You know something? I HATE when people from your church come up to me and ask me if I am your daughter and then they rave about how great you are and how nice you are. I REALLY HATE when young girls or girls my age come up to me and tell me how cool you are and how they wish you were their mom. You know why I hate it? Because when they tell me that, I don't know who the hell they are talking about. Because that mother, is not my mother. You know what else I hate, when these people tell me how you rave about how I can play the piano, guitar, drums, bass and how I sing and write music and how proud you are of me. I hate it because you use me to gain popularity in your church. "Oh my daughter does this... My daughter does that...". You're a pious church rat. I will never use my child as a way to be popular... especially amongst church people.
Mark my words, the moment I get a job, I will be leaving your house. Because today I saw a monster inside of you and that, I can not live with. I don't hate you, but you have been tearing my self esteem, my integrity, and my dignity since I was in middle school. Im done putting up with it. Because me, I am a good person and I deserve better.
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